My friends are under the mistaken belief that I’m always in control and on top of things. :maria laughs maniacally: Oh, how I wish that were true! The problem with becoming overwhelmed is that it’s like a boulder gaining mass and momentum. If you don’t find a way to stop it or get out of the way, it’ll flatten you like a pancake.
I’ve been in overwhelm mode for several weeks now. Part of the reason is that aside from the normal chores and necessary projects around the homestead, I’ve had more company than usual, got the plague twice, and that nagging nerve pain decided to expand its territory.
I’ve been unhappy and there’s absolutely no reason for it. I have all I could want–aside from wanting a little less pain. The nomad in me has been wanting to get away from everything and unplug.
And that right there is the secret to fighting back. People rarely realize that their subconscious really knows what’s best for them. My ardent desire to escape is my brain telling me to stop what I’m doing and realign myself. I’m not a procrastinator, so escaping is not part of my normal programming. If my brain is telling me to let go, it’s probably the right thing to do.
In a perfect world, I’d pack my bags and leave, but we all know none of us live in that fairy land. I feel obligated to the homestead, which always runs 24/7. I feel obligated to Greg and the dogs. And I feel obligated to you, my reader.
I feel an obligation to myself not to be a slacker, and this is where I run into trouble. I always want to do more than what’s good for me. If I’ve analyzed this correctly, my choices are as follows:
• Put the blog on hiatus, stop answering all calls and emails, and run away to the mountains.
A nice idea, but totally out of the question. Greg and the dogs would want to go, and that leaves no one left to run the homestead. Moving on…
• Disown my family
ROTFL! My mom would never stand for that. Apparently, I’m in this family for life.
• Leave the homestead and buy a nice (little) house in the city. –some place with NO scorpions.
This has actually crossed my mind, but Greg is against it since he finally has his shop the way he likes it. I’m stuck here until he changes his mind.
In the bigger picture, I think things will wind down in the next three months anyway. I just have to bide my time. Come on, October!
My biggest worry has been this nerve pain that extends from my hip to my feet now. Time for a professional assessment on that. Yeah, I know. I waited too long.
What do you do when life overwhelms you? Do you get off the merry-go-round and rest, or do you fight it to the death? I used to think resting was a sign of weakness, but now I think it’s the smarter choice. The world won’t care if I do one less load of laundry or one less blog post.
This is a holiday week in more ways than one. Not only is it US Independence Day, (July 4th), but it’s also Greg’s birthday this Thursday. We have to do some work taking down dead trees and gathering a lot of fallen limbs this week (see what I mean about the homestead), but we should be free to celebrate by Thursday. 🙂
Do you have any celebratory plans this week?
Update: My buddy, BE Sanderson had trouble commenting today. She left a shorter comment and it finally went through. If you noticed the same thing, you can message me on Facebook or email me. I recently changed out a plugin and I want to make sure that’s not the culprit. Thanks!